Have you ever had something that you wanted to tell someone, but you knew that you couldn't? Have you ever carried around something inside the confines of your mind that desperately wanted to escape from your mouth? I've spent the last 261 days in one of those situations...and needless to say, it's been anything but fun.
Last night, when I should have been driving home, I spent 2 hours talking to someone who is extremely important to me. We had the usual chit chat, the "how's life" talk, playful banter, etc. There was a silence in conversation and she took the opportunity to say what I could tell she'd been needing to say for a long time. The details of our conversation aren't for the world to hear...the point is that her words forced my hand. It was a "do or die" moment in my relationship with this lady sitting across from me. So I did. I threw my cards on the table, figuratively speaking ,of course, and told her everything from day one. The total story of my thoughts, reactions, conversations with God, the real reason that I started writing this blog, my plans for the future, my interpretation of God's will for her and I...everything.
I was absolutely terrified in the middle of our talk. But as soon as the words were done leaving my mouth, I could almost literally feel weight coming off my shoulders. All that had been carried around in my head was free now. Last night was the most alive I've felt in ages. That was the heaviest conversation I've ever had with that special person, and possibly the most important conversation I've ever had, with anyone.
My friends, the reason I write this blog today is to share the relief I feel now. The words we shared last night should have come out months ago. For whatever reason, they were bottled up inside. I want to urge you to not let important things go unsaid with the people in your life. Don't let fear or anything else keep you from experiencing the relief that I feel right now. Be vulnerable, be real.
I threw myself completely out on the line last night. I stuck my neck out and put all the cards on the table. It was terrifying. That special person could have easily chopped my proverbial head off. She didn't.
Talk to the important people in your life. Tell them how you really feel.
John 8:32 - "You shall know the truth...and the truth shall set you free."
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